Truths.
Sometimes I just want to open up more emotionally. I don’t mean sob over my teeth and bloated cheeks, while I’m drooling all over my arms. I mean, I wish I could be able to express what I’m going through without feeling vulnerable. It’s hard. I want to say things beyond the obvious, but I always feel like I will emotionally burden that person. I never want someone to feel down because of my problems. I guess I worry about it because it has happened to me. I’ve had a friend in the (way) past who would only express her downfalls and problems. Venting is one thing, but there was always an unsolvable issue. It always made me feel bad, worrisome, and ultimately I started to question myself and my happiness. I don’t want that for someone else. It’s not like my thoughts are depressing, but what if they offend someone, change their perspectives, or worse - what if it changes how they think at me? I don’t know. It seems silly, but there are only a handful, if not less, that I can actually express everything to and feel “safe”. They want to listen, I know they’ll be okay, and rub my back and say it’s okay. I wish it wasn’t so few.
